What if all this isn't real
Have you ever stood still with this, maybe you ever had a near death experience, almost getting hit by a car falling off of something high but barely made it.
Well what if you didn't and your lying in a coma right now and your subconcious is just creating images in your head to keep you from waking up in horrible pain and possible death afterwards, just so your body can restore.

Or maybe you were born with a mental disability/insanity and this is also all just a fiction of your imagination, because of the drugs you get you hallucinate to not hurt yourself, everytime you feel good they give you the drugs,
whenever you feel bad they forgot to give it to you and the pain you feel is you hurting yourself without knowing

I don't know, sometimes i just start thinking about weird things